f-n' a

i got a call from the principal of the last place i interviewed at...the really good interview. they can't hire me. i think they want to, but they can't. cause district policy states that i need to have a license before they can hire me. there's a slim chance they'll hold it until august when i actually get my license. but i'm not holding my breath. once again stupid decisions in the past have taken away an opportunity. jumping off a tall cliff sounds good to me. end things now before they get worse. and yes, they can. i'm really stripped for money. thinking about skipping the new orleans trip that's coming up. i can't afford to miss it.

on a side note, have another interview for a summer job. old navy again. only will take it if i get a higher position. refuse to be a regular sales associate there again.

i need help. i hate myself.